It's a BOY!!!

I can't even begin to describe the feelings I have felt over the last 11 weeks and the feeling of relief I have now. I know nothing is for certain until the baby arrives, but today I finally got to see the "turtle". It has been an emotional rollercoaster being told a different sex for every different hospital visit but for the last 2 weeks I have had a feeling that this baby is a boy so today came as no surprise. Both of our families were hoping for a little girl and the first time we asked, the Obstetrician told us that she was 90% sure we were expecting a pink bundle. You can imagine the surprise we got 3 weeks later when we were told the baby was actually a boy.

To say I was disappointed would sound so selfish of me, as there are so many people in the world who deserve to experience this wonderful gift and can't, but that is exactly how I felt. I sobbed my heart out that night. It didn't make me feel better, it made me feel horrible for being upset that we hadn't got the sex everyone was hoping for. It didn't take me long to realise that I was being ridiculous - our babies heart was beating and he was healthy and that is all that mattered. I kept thinking about the day I finally got to meet Lucas and how truly blessed I am to have such a wonderful little boy.

At 23 weeks, we were told that our baby was a girl AGAIN. I thought it was a sure thing as the Obstetrician told us that he could not see any bits that suggest baby would be a boy. We made a few more purchases of clothes and blankets, but didn't go overboard. We were now prepared for a girl and a boy. I couldn't believe how many times someone could possibly get it wrong, but I have an anterior placenta so clearly identifying the sex of the baby has been a bit of a problem.

Today I had my growth scan and the sonographer told me that there is a penis and testicles in between those little legs and let me have a good look to put my mind at ease. I am so happy! I have had a gorgeous boys name chosen that I have fallen in love with since being told boy at 20 weeks and am so overjoyed that I will get to use it!!

Not all of the news from today has been as great. Our beautiful boy is measuring at 30 weeks and 5 days, even though our gestation is 28 weeks and 2 days. He currently weighs 1.4kgs (3.08 pounds) and they think that I might have Gestational Diabetes after all. Unfortunately I won't know much more until I see the Obstetrician on Friday. I am keeping my fingers crossed for some good news, but am fully prepared for the complete opposite as it seems my luck goes that way.

Hooray for being a Mummy to 2 gorgeous boys!!! x